Focused

I am trying to keep things in perspective. With Jacob’s impending three week trip to Seoul, South Korea my softer side longs to hop on a plane and fly home to Florida to be with my family. These last 11 days without my Hubby have been LONG. The truth of the matter however, is that this is not a practical solution to my loneliness. Firstly, the dogs: Scooter I could probably fly with easily. Jack on the other hand, would be a bit more of a challenge. Crating him on a plane for a cross country flight or kenneling him for three weeks both sound like crummy options to me. Either way, I would spend a fortune and either way he would be miserable. On top of that, I will be 34-37 weeks pregnant during this time. This might not be the safest time to fly. Plus I’ll have 2 important visits with my midwife during this period. Lastly, I still haven’t made any friends here in Fremont, and I certainly can’t get to know anyone from FL. I need to get a life here, NOW so that the NEXT time Jacob leaves me (and the country) I will have more of a network. Sadly, I can’t go home every time he leaves, especially with the baby. I need to keep going to yoga, join a church, and a Mommy and Me group…

Do I sound convincing? The truth of the matter is that I miss my family and I would LOVE to go home for three lovely weeks. Think of the tan I could get on my big pregnant belly! Ahh…the Gulf of Mexico in May. All my reasons for staying haven’t REALLY sold me on it. We’ll see I guess. Things are definitely getting better for me here in California. Having Matt and Jen so close is HUGE. There is talk of Jen coming to visit me for a while to keep me company. Plus, I have a La Leche League meeting and a Bay Area Home Birth Collective pot-luck to look forward to in May. At least I will be seeing the family just around the corner. All the parents are coming to see the new grandbaby, and there is an upcoming trip to Ripley for Sara’s (my cousin) wedding! Sigh… Focused, I just have to stay focused.