Saturday, February 27, 2010

Celebrating Georgia

February is almost over. Just a few more hours to what has been the shortest and longest month all at once. The snow still blankets everything. It's been a week or so since fresh has fallen so everything is dirty and grey outside. I can't wait till the glaciers encroaching onto the edges of all the streets have receded and gone, the sun comes back, and hints of green start peaking though the mud. This month has been a whirlwind: birthdays, Valentine's Day, company, pre-school, play-dates, lobbying for midwifery at The Capitol, parent-teacher conferences (Normy's doing great), never-ending laundry, a few lazy weekends... and of course there is no end in sight.

Did I mention birthdays? Saturday was Georgia's. It's happened. She's not a baby an longer. My darling girl is two. What a thrill. Toddlerhood suits her. She's witty and sassy and full of exuberance. Sure she's sweet, but really this little force of nature is out to claim her place in the world... all ready.

Where did my fat-faced smiling little cherub go? These days she's a climbing, talking, jumping, dancing machine.

She loves blueberries and Nutella on toast (choc-oh-but toast as she says) the best. I'll never forget the day not too long ago when I came down stairs to find her sitting in front of a ten pound bag of frozen blueberries that she had managed to drag out of our bottom-bin freezer and dump into a HUGE pile on the floor. She was eating them gleefully one at a time and covered from head to toe in their juice. She enjoys every kind of cheese...even the stinky kind. She is the child I can count on to finish her plate at every meal. She prefers juice to milk. And has finally learned to pass me her sippy cup in the car as opposed to just throwing it down when she's through. She hollers up to me, "Take it!!!" And I remind her, "How do you say that nicely?"

"PLEASE!" I hear from the back.

She loves movies, and could spend all day watching Cinderella or Caillou. She asks for both all day long. She isn't really into toys. She would much rather climb up in your lap and chat your ear off. She wants to be where the people are. Of course, she does love her babies and every night she has to go to sleep with "Pink Baby" and "Other Baby." She tucks one doll under each arm and clutches a yellow wooden circle from a shape puzzle in one hand (her apple) and a plastic scoop of orange play-ice cream in her other hand (her orange). Every night. It's her ritual. After we read books and before her prayer she demands to be rocked a bit. I must wrap her in her blanket and she snuggles into me while I rock back and forth, back and forth in the dark with her. The past few weeks she has started requesting that I sing "rock a-bye baby" to her during the "rock-a-bit." So, I humor her with a few rounds in my shaky voice and she goes to bed after with no complaints.

She is potty trained, speaking in full sentences, and jumping with two feet. Everything she does is full throttle. I can't keep her from climbing all over the furniture. She starts the day and immediately wants breakfast. She'd prefer a cup of coffee if I would let her. When we drop Normy off at school she tells him, "I love you, we be back soon, Jacob!" When something stumps her (a rare occurrence) she often asks him for help. "Jacob! I need help!" Georgia adores her big brother. They take naps at the same time, but in different rooms. If she wakes up before him it is nearly impossible to keep her from trying to break down the door to get him up: "Wake up Jacob!"

I don't know what I would do if she wasn't so polite and sweet to off-set how demanding and willful she is. She often resists me but does so by saying, "No thank you, Mommy! No thank you, Mommy!" When she is in the mood to be agreeable she says, "OK Mommy. That's good." She almost always says please, thank you, and even you're welcome. Amazing.

She's obsessive and single minded. For instance she only wants to wear things that are the color orange. She will proudly tell you "Orange is my favorite color!" There have been several times where she has worn her favorite orange jammies for days in a row, because that was the only orange outfit she owned. Thank goodness her Grandma and Aunt Kate came through with some orange clothes for her birthday, so now we have a little more orange in the rotation. If I can get her dressed in something other than orange it is only an outfit of her choosing. I have to hold her up in front of the clothes in her closet until she has chosen just the right pieces for the day. Usually a dress.

Her favorite books are If You Give a Pig a Party, Curious George and the Puppies, and Mrs. Wishy-Washy's Splishy-Sploshy. She loves to be read to and loves to say the lines she knows. She has memorized all her letters and most of their sounds. She loves to count while going up and down stairs and can go as high as twelve. I pretty much think she is a genius.

I love almost every minute of being Georgia's Mommy. Even the challenging minutes with her usually make me laugh later. The child has more personality in her pinky finger than most adults do at all. And now she is two! I started noticing the day before as the anniversary came close. I would look at the clock and think, "Two years ago I was jokingly telling people at dinner that I was in labor." Or, "Two years ago we had just arrived at the birth center; I started pushing; or I was holding her in my arms waiting for her Daddy to get there." Her birth was a crazy whirl-wind... it's no surprise that her life has been the same.

Happy birthday, Georgia Elizabeth. I wish that I would be able to remember every moment of these sweet days getting to be your Mommy and watching you unfold into the amazing little person that you are. I adore you. I treasure you. And I can't wait to wake up tomorrow and spend more time with you... especially if your brother would just let me sleep in past five am!

Two Years in Pictures
















Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Peace and Waiting

Drinking

Imagining...

I am utterly captivated by the peace and serenity permeating my home right this second. Where was this feeling yesterday? It was in the works, surely. Yesterday I was functioning without sleep and under too many demands. But, I fought to stay productive... ahem. Mostly productive. And it all payed off. Now I am sitting in a perfectly quite house. The cleaning machines aren't even working. All is tidy, all is ordered, and even the paper work and phone calls are under control. This moment is so strange... I can't think of ANYTHING else that I could or should be doing. For a second, I can feel perfectly permitted to just be. I can hear myself think.

Yesterday

Right Now

All the children are sleeping, even Lola. My belly is still and quiet.







Before the ultrasound, I wondered if a part of me would regret finding out the sex before the birth. I had this sliver of a doubt that it could take away from the magic. But it hasn't. Not in the slightest. I love that this little being already has a name, a space in our family, and a space in the world. She is more real to me now than either Normy or Georgia were prior to their births. Especially with Normy, I could intellectually understand that there was a baby in there, that I would birth, and nurse, and watch grow... But, really it just felt like there was something foreign moving inside of me. I loved the idea of a baby before he was born... but I didn't really love him.

Everything changed when he was born. Having children stretches your heart in ways you can't imagine beforehand. I loved everyone in my life more after he was born because loving a child teaches your heart to love in new and bigger and more infinite ways. I found that growth overflowed into every aspect of my life.

By the time I was pregnant with Georgia I knew how much I was going to love her. I was much more aware of her as an actual baby in belly, as opposed to just a series of random rolling jabbing motions in my abdomen each day. I could feel the little curve of her back, and find the little round bump of her rump with my fingers. I could tell which movements were her feet and which ere the little tickle of her fluttery arms. What surprised me when she was born was how much MORE I loved her than I thought I would. I had never had any of those worries along the lines of how will I love a second child as much as I do my first? which the Internet would tell you is common. I knew my heart would swell to love them both... I just couldn't fathom HOW MUCH IT WOULD SWELL.

With each child it seems as though my heart is like the Grinch's on Christmas morning when he hears the Whoos down in Whoville start singing their song. The love just gets bigger and bigger. With Lola everything just seems to be happening earlier. I showed earlier, I felt her move sooner, and she was named before she was even conceived. She was predestined to come to us and be with us. I can't wait to hold her in my arms and see her little face, but really she is already right here. Not much will change. She'll go from my womb to a wrap; I'll still nourish her with my body; and I will still sleep curled around her at night. I have already spent my days talking to her, and about her. He siblings have already been lavishing her with kisses. Kisses I am sure she feels.

There are still mysteries of course. Will she have dark hair like Normy and Georgia did at their births? What will her personality be like? Will she keep her baby blue eyes? What will she want to be when she grows up? Will she travel the world, go to college, or join the circus? Actually the mysteries are endless. But, I feel like I already know her. So strange considering I was sure she was a boy. ;-)

I am so excited to birth this baby girl. I can't wait to kiss her and kiss her and kiss her... which is what I tend to do with my babies. I just can't keep my lips off them!

Well, I suppose I will go find something else to do. That baby blanket is still waiting for me to knit one stitch at a time... each stitch closer to being something to wrap around my new little love. Each stitch closer, each day closer...

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

To Do List

Things I should be doing:

1) Working my way through the piles of laundry that have accumulated since the brand-new washing machine hit a glitch last Thursday. (It was fixed Saturday easily enough.)


2) Planning the brunch menu for Georgia's little birthday gathering this weekend.

3) Scrubbing my bathrooms and putting clean linens on the guest bed in anticipation of my dear friend's visit tomorrow.


4) Dusting my bed in preparation for our new mattress to be delivered today. (The old one was torn through the middle during our last move and will be replaced by the moving company. Thank goodness.)

5) Playing with my daughter and stimulating her little brain.


6) Cleaning up after breakfast and second-breakfast.


Things I am actually doing:

1) Looking for a good "picture of the day" for Facebook.

2) Letting Georgia watch Calliou.

3) Drinking a 3rd cup of coffee. (Sorry Lola, get used to it. You're going to be expected to nap after drinking mommy's caffeinated breast milk, consider this training.)

4) Staring at my knitting. Why don't baby blankets knit themselves?


5) Listening to the Cure. Because it is totally a Disintegration kinda grey day.


Things I want to be doing:

1) Not much.

2) Sleeping.


3) Sitting in the sunshine.


How about you? What are you procrastinating today? Or are you one of those obnoxious highly motivated people actually living life to the fullest and accomplishing important things?

OK... I'm going to get to work now. Seriously. Really. On my way, an unstoppable force...

Monday, February 15, 2010

Life in February

It's more than halfway through the month and I have been slack in posting. I don't know what to say. Life has been move along predictably and steadily. The short winter days pass swiftly into snuggly winter nights. We wake in darkness and and find ourselves there again at dusk far too quickly. Some of what has been occupying us...

Our friend the opossum.
He came to the window one night and scratched like a cat waiting to be let in. He wasn't AT ALL scared of Jack. In fact, the dog got tired of barking and walked away BEFORE the opossum did.
Since then we have seen our little buddy many more times. Normy named him Squeaky. I have no clue where he got that.

We enjoyed a wonderful visit from Grandma the first week in February. She spoiled us all. Especially me. She cooked amazing food, gave me time away form the kids, and let me talk through just about everything under the sun with her. Plus, she gave Georgia and I long over-due hair cuts. It was a perfect week

It's been snowing.
a lot.

I designed and began a baby blanket for Lola. I was in love with it, despite the complications caused by knitting with double strands and eight color changes in a row.

Then I realized that I had made a tragic mistake. I began the project using left-over yarn from my niece's blanket. When I went shopping to buy more, I discovered that two of the colors critical to the blanket were discontinued. After scouring the city yarn shops, the Internet, and Ravelry, I finally had to concede that it would be impossible to get all the yarn I needed.

Ripping out the blanket took almost as long as knitting it had in the first place. Back to the drawing board.

Georgia has been dressing herself. She refuses to let me her choose her clothes. That happened fast. I thought I had till she was thirteen or so. At least she has great style.

We were given ticket to the local children's theater. We saw an amazing ballet called Rainforest. The kids were riveted. This was Georgia when we got home. She passed out sometime after the intermission and was comatose by the time we got home and we threw her on the couch like a little sack of tatters. Cute, huh?

This afternoon: 25 weeks

Watching Sleeping Beauty


SO, there are pictures of the grandkids. Everyone can calm down now. I'll try to bee a little more consistent the rest of the month. But, no promises. I might be spending all my free time in the kitchen. Smoochy and I just watched Food, Inc. last night... which means that I am freshly energized to improve the way we eat. It's been a work in progress for a couple of years now. But really, it's been three steps forward and two step backs. Lately, there has been a lot of backsliding in my kitchen. Food, Inc. really was the reminder I needed to invigorate my efforts. Let's just say we won't be buying just any old meat from the grocery store any longer. Too bad we have about another six month worth of ground chuck and pork loin in the deep freeze. Who knows, maybe that will give me something to blog about...

Friday, February 12, 2010

Birth in Nebraska

Check out this amazing video produced by a women in the Nebraska Friends of Midwives for our current legislative efforts. It is brilliant. We showed it at a luncheon at the State Capitol last week that we hosted to bring senators and constituents together to talk about the three bills we are currently trying to push through. The luncheon was a wonderful success with a good turn-out and great food. Now if only we can get our bills out of the Health and Human Service Committee and on to the floor for a vote...