A Week of Lola

Written yesterday:

It has been a week now since my beautiful Lola exploded out into the world. A week now since my world expanded to love her and everyone else in my life a hundred fold more than before. That Oxytocin is a powerful drug. I am overcome by the magic of life. There is nothing in the world like the birth of a child to put the universe in order for you. My priorities seem clearer and my heart is fuller. My OCDs still make me cringe at the sight of my messy house, but not enough to actually put my baby down and do much about it. Thank God, my sister and husband have been here this week with me to ensure we’ve been fed, the dishes done, and toddlers have been bathed.

This week I have been clutching to the newborn days like they are the fleeting gift they are. I woke up this morning deeply sad that a week had already passed. I felt like each hour that slipped by was taking my sweet little baby away from me. I kept thinking soon she’ll be so much bigger… this only lasts a second.

Then, I got on my computer and scrolled through four years worth of pictures, and I relaxed. Ah yes, even though these newborn days are brief and wonderful, the days that follow just get better and better. Now I sit here thinking about my big kids; I wouldn’t trade back their baby days. I held them and loved them as we moved through them together. Now those days are a part of us all, a part of our cells and our memories. That time is a piece of our subconscious that we carry around indestructible in our shared history. The best is yet to come. No, the best is always right now. And let me tell you, right now is pretty freaking wonderful.

But, it really is incredible how fast new babies change. In honor of these sweet first days, here is a picture a day from Lola’s first week:

Her Birthday

May 30th

May 31st

June 1st

June 2nd

June 3rd

June 4th

June 5th